I Feel like Feeling

Would the world be a better place if we did not feel? If we did not have emotions?20110721164608These are some questions implied in the movie “Equilibrium”, written and directed by Kurt Wimmer, which my husband and I watched last night. It takes place in a future dystopia, where all feelings and emotions and all forms of artistic expression have become outlawed, due to an ideology  that determined human emotion to be the root cause of conflict. In order to suppress these outlawed emotions, all citizens are required to take a daily injection. Then, one day, John Preston (Christian Bale) accidentally misses an injection and begins to question everything.
I found this movie fascinating, and I am sure there are so many psychological or philosophical debates I could not even dream to touch upon.
This was my favorite exchange in the movie:

Mary: Let me ask you something.
[Grabs his hand]
Mary: Why are you alive?
John Preston: [Breaks free] I’m alive… I live… to safeguard the continuity of this great society. To serve Libria.
Mary: It’s circular. You exist to continue your existence. What’s the point?John Preston: What’s the point of your existence?
Mary: To feel. ‘Cause you’ve never done it, you can never know it. But it’s as vital as breath. And without it, without love, without anger, without sorrow, breath is just a clock… ticking.

God gives us the ability to choose; to lead our lives as we see fit or to come to him. He gives us the capacity to feel; to love, to grieve, to rejoice, to be angry…
If we were just ticking clocks – if we were emotionless beings just doing what a higher being tells us to do – would we not be much more than a robot?
I look around and I see a world of beauty; A world of intelligence, a world of creation; A world of emotions…
But, I also see a world of destruction.
Some might say you can’t have one without the other; You can’t have good without evil;
Light, without darkness;
Heaven, without Hell…light-and-darknessYet, despite the imperfections; despite the pain and heartaches that might come with feeling – and having emotions – I am glad for it. Glad for this dynamic life.

What’s the point of your existence?

Mine is Christ.


Being and Doing and Morning

While doing my devotions this morning, included was this excerpt from The Community of the King By Howard A. Snyder;
” Truly Christian transformation of culture comes through Christ-like ( and hence sacrificial) love, community and being.
But this fact by no means cancels out the responsibility to do, to act, to walk in the words of God. Rather, the being and the doing go together. The being is fundamental, but the doing is a natural result. ”

Too easily I forget to live in faith; and what I do is no longer a result of a Christ-like life, but rather a forced task of my own efforts, in hopes of attaining Christ-likeness.
And doing things backwards can sure be draining.

My thoughts of the morning.

Spring Ogre

It has been a dry Spring.
My rain barrel sits relatively empty, my skin is itchy, my contacts occasionally drive me bonkers, and, on top of that, most ‘nice’ days are followed with a 30km/hour wind.
It has been dry for me in another way too.
My creativity juice. Inspiration. Motivation.
It’s a holiday Monday. A long weekend. An extra day of freedom! An extra day to do something GREAT!
AND, there’s sunshine and No 30km winds! A few wonderful hours to do anything; to sing, to dance, walk, learn, socialize, exercise, etc.,
But I feel headachy, and rather not excited about anything at this particular moment. Maybe sleeping in messed up my day…
Or perhaps I have the beginnings of Ogre-itis.

I think it’s time to roll this verse around in my head for a while…

Psalm 118:24
24 This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”

What does it take, for me to stop taking this life for granted?
How do You recover from Ogre-itis?